- staying up until 3 am to finish an entire event or vacation scrapbooking
- reading a novel in a few days and neglecting ALL of my responsibilities to do it
- cleaning out every single closet and drawer in our entire house in a ten day span
These are just a few examples to illustrate that I just HATE starting something and not finishing it. For those of you who think I am nuts, I truly am not because I often procrastinate on things if I cannot start and finish them in the same day. Here are some thoughts I've had about this.
- Am I just really impatient or need instant gratification?
- Is delayed gratification worth the anxiety it gives me to not complete a task?
- Guilt really does not play a part, it truly is anxiety.
- Why does it have to be all or nothing?
These thoughts have led me to the whole idea of obedience. Taking all of the above things into consideration, I wonder how this behavior translates into my spirituality. Many of you know that I am LDS. I have not always been a member of this church, but I truly love our Savior, Jesus Christ and His gospel. When it comes to me practicing my religion I have tried my very best to be obedient. I am not claiming to be perfect at all. When I am asked to do something; whether it be a calling, scripture study, etc. I take it very seriously. The thought crosses my mind though, "is it in vain?" Am I being obedient because of the anxiety I feel to not do something completely?
So here is where it relates to my health and weight?
~Do you have an "all or nothing" attitude about health and habits?~
~Do you consider yourself a perfectionist?~
~Why can I not apply the same behaviors to eating well?~
All insight is welcome, except mean things that call me crazy!